Liveblogging from FC2008

Posted in allies, conference, education, media, politics, privilege on November 14, 2008 by brownstocking

Yay! Okay, so I already cyberstalked Jill Tubman of Jack and Jill Politics. I’ve Tweeted Liza at Culture Kitchen. I can’t wait to figure out who else from my Bloglines list is here…

I’m now at the plenary about The Race Debates. We’re watching a video clip of all the talking heads who said, now that we have an African-American president, America is no longer racist, and we’re post-racial now. Terry Keleher is the Moderator.

We’re starting debate 1: Health Care Disparities. Interactive Section discussing opening comments. Totally confused. Amusing, but confusing. Anti-race speaker, Julianne Ong Hing, of Colorlines, correctly points out economic disparities in our capitalist society are a critical factor. Good answer…audience chuckles about “identity politics” smear…ultimately, “we have a choice in how we live.” Dominic’s (Dom Apollon, Ph.D., Applied Research Center) answer talks about healthcare disparities and misdiagnoses of treatments, and does address the economics, but talks more about lack of access/structural racism.


  • Julianne (concealing race) used race to put Dom on the defensive, with a moving personal anecdote
  • She used well-known stereotypes, and coded them, making it subtle
  • She pitted race against class, an effective argument
  • Dom (revealing race) was effective in revealing how the gov’t betrays POC, especially First Nations
  • He tried to avoid directly speaking to issue of race/calling out racism
  • While what he said was logical, there wasn’t the passion
  • He attempted to show patterns of racism; how do we do this, without getting reduced to academic jargon?

Tehcniques for Concealing Racism

  1. Denying & Exceptionalizing
  2. Coding & Scapegoating
  3. Deflecting & Confusing

Techniques for Revealing Racism

  1. Name It
  2. Frame It
  3. Explain It

Debate 2: Race Silence v. Race Explicit (this sounds sexy…hope my batter makes it!)

Can we address race using class or universal frames? Kalpana and Shannah will debate

Kalpana: we need to build the broadest coalition possible, let’s appeal to self-interest. Used Montana as example. Invoked Obama and “change.” Don’t move against public opinion.

Shannah: won’t go away by pretending it’s not there. Universal healthcare for kids gets chopped away by selecting out groups little by little. We cut out people by appealing to the majority. When we lead with grace, we expand the base. We need to speak on it to se who our allies are. It’s about playing offense.

This was spicy! In my group are (just from my visuals and member comments) two white women who were activists since the 60s, a 20ish Asian American woman, and this 30ish Black women

Kilpana’s rebuttal: “we’re on the same side.” “We didn’t do our jobs, if we lose our campaigns.” “poor people are sicker thanĀ  rich people”

Shannah: let’s think long-term, not short term. Refuse to let go of the racism. White people won’t think about racism unless they’re made to.


  • Kalpana was very charismatic and dangerous
  • Collette Kieth mentions, in Native American issues, how racism can shut down a conversation
  • Malkia Cyril brings up Prop 8 and the No on 8 campaigns, how relationships change
  • We need to consider what is lost when we give up conversations on race; just because we don’t talk about it, doesn’t mean it’s not at play

Wow, I think I’m on a high with this! Could be the bubble black tea, though. Can’t front.

I’m already over it

Posted in Uncategorized on January 8, 2015 by brownstocking

i don’t like living with her and i should have never told her about this place. she’s more judgmental and conservative than she thinks she is.

I am lost

Posted in Uncategorized on December 2, 2014 by brownstocking

I’m not asking for human help.

I’m simply crying out. I’m tired. I don’t want to be stuck anymore.

I want to get over this block.

I want rest. I want to not be sad. I want to not be angry. I want to fulfill the academic promise I know is within me.

I want rest. Rest that comes from completion.


Posted in Uncategorized on November 5, 2014 by brownstocking

i don’t know why i’m doing what i am. but i’ve cast the die. so i need to accept it.


welp. i am not sure what the lesson learned was, other than, maybe starting CBT again.

Day One, Class Two

Posted in Uncategorized on August 28, 2014 by brownstocking

I’m not in my comfort zone. I’m not in my comfort zone. Why are people in my space?

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I’m not a SBW

Posted in Uncategorized on August 9, 2014 by brownstocking

I get how damaging the Strong Black Woman myth is as I prepare to leave. Everything that is going wrong is my responsibility, and I should have planned better, and I should have had everything together and I’m selfish and I’ll be leaving my parents alone when I leave and all they’ll have is each other.

Note to self: stop talking mess about people’s husbands, even if they’re my father. I keep forgetting marriage comes first.


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Posted in Uncategorized on July 25, 2014 by brownstocking

Nothing like hearing your parent discuss your failings behind your back.

Thanks, Mom.

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3 Months Later

Posted in Uncategorized on July 24, 2014 by brownstocking

And shit-all is done. I shouldn’t even be going to seminary. I’m messed up.

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